Today I found this website called Orange Rhino! It's about a lady who took a self-challenge to not yell at his kids for a year. The article I read was about what she learned after not yelling for a year! This article struck a cord with me because: I am a yeller! I don't know how it happened. It was like I started yelling a little, then more, and it became this downward spiral! I hate yelling! I hate feeling how I feel after I do! Mostly, I hate how I know it must make my kids feel! Yesterday I snapped at Aidan(over nothing) and I literally saw the expression on his face turn from concern(about his dinner, which I was well aware of after he had already told me 4 times) to pain(would it have killed me to acknowledge his concern one more time in a calm manner... no!) I once hung a sign on my fridge that said: You're yelling so loud, I can't hear what you are saying! It's true. I yell so much my kids tune me out so I yell louder and clearly it becomes a never-ending battle.
So, why am I writing about this on my blog about JOY. Surly yelling and feeling like a rotten mom is not something that brings joy. But, instead of beating myself up about it... I am renewed. Recommitted! Will I take the challenge not to yell at my kids for an entire year... not sure! (I'm thinking about it) This article was just what I needed today! It reminds me that there are other's out there who struggle with the same things, whose kids tell them they hate them, who are not perfect. And it reminds me mostly that I CAN BE BETTER!
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